Boy: So what now?
Me: You can't expect me to accept you back in my life. It's been five years, you can't just expect it'll be okay.
Boy: But I'm here now, that's all that matters, right?
Me: Look, maybe if ni 2/3/4 years ago, I'd accept you back in my life. Because back then, it was different. I won't stay just because I still have feelings because if I did, I'd still be with my ex.
Boy: What do you mean?
Me: *Sigh* We're not seventeen anymore. Relationship can't just depend on feelings; it needs trust, commitment, loyalty. All of the things that you're lacking of since the first day we met. I loved you, so much back then. I fucking loved you. You fucked with my feelings. You treated me like a princess when we were together and then you confessed your feelings to me. I asked you to give me a week. And you know what happened after that? After a fucking week, I decided to accept you. And you know what the heck happened after that? You told me that the girl that you asked to be your girlfriend about two weeks ago finally accepted you. How the fuck did you expect me to feel?
Saturday, June 2, 2012
Boy: You busy tak today?
Me: Kenapa you tanya?
Boy: Tak ada la, if you're not busy.. I wanna catch up with you, I'm not back often.
Me: I'm free now, we don't always meet up pun when you're back. Apa yang you nak catch up kan?
Boy: How are you dengan your boyfriend?
Me: *sigh* It didn't work out, we broke up.
Boy: How come?
Me: I'm quite tired of telling the same story over and over again but what I can assure you is that I'm okay. I have been busy with my upcoming uni event and class has started. So, my time is fully occupied right now.
Boy: Are you sure?
Boy: Can I tell you the truth?
Me: Apa dia?
Me: Apa dia?
Boy: I broke up with mine, too.
Boy: I couldn't forget that certain someone.
Me: Who are you talking about?
Me: Wait, what? Please, don't do this now.
Boy: Why not, Nad? When I wasn't seeing anyone, you were with Azmi. And then when you were single, I was seeing someone else. Both of us were never single at the same time. And you were complaining how both of us just sucked at timing. Why not now?
Me: And you think our timing is just too good right now for you just waltzed back into my life? You confessed while you were seeing your girlfriend and you just left after that.
Boy: I was stupid okay.